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[23 Oct 2008|06:43am] |
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kings of leon |
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i love kings of leon.
"use somebody" is my favorite song.
i want to lay in bed and just listen.
in other news: grandpa is out of the hospital and at a rehabilition facility. +
i have mentor training tonight 6-9pm, which means i won't be home all day today. -
i have put myself in a $ituation and thus i pinch until the first week of nov. -
i'm still laughing. +
i could "use somebody". lol.
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| here is where you want to be |
[06 Sep 2008|12:09pm] |
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i love music. i love to move my body.
i don't get it. i don't.
first, i'm unwanted & the next thing i know i've got a back log.
i'm ready for a fun weekend. noah & i are going to hang out with robin.
i love that girl.
i want to go shopping :/
i MUST stay away, MUST.
lol.
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| according to that. |
[26 Jan 2006|03:58pm] |
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judge judy |
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i'm tired.
i find ways to smile-anyway.
[s.n.]
how come i deal with all the crazies?
they tell me their life stories w/not one ounce of shame.
& i'm not big on shame, but i'm big on being discreet..especially if you don't know the person from adam.
sheesh.
its all good.
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| we already have a fridge |
[08 Jan 2006|08:04pm] |
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cha cha cha |
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new job tomorrow. eeeeps.
i've got myself all worked up about it.
it'll be nothing, i promise haha.
today was chris' basketball game.
they could have done better.
i signed up at mountain side fitness today :D
now i can work out at a LOW LOW low price (19.75)!!
EXCITED!
now i'll get all buff and tan like i want. lol.
ya, all is good.
i miss my puppy. he is with his daddie right now.
i miss his daddie. i can't wait until i get to live with them both.
gotta make the dolla dolla bills first.
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| cash money |
[05 Jan 2006|11:48am] |
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omarion |
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I start my new job on monday. I'm kinda nervous. I'm actually really nervous! I have paperwork to fill out and then its time to go to work. Eeeks. I'm sure its giong to be fine, I know it will.
I get my paycheck from Express tomorrow. I can't wait for that. I have some bills to pay and some doggie stuff to buy for my new little baby Cash. He is the cutest puppy by the way. I want to buy him everything. He loves my family and is learning so many new tricks. It is hilarious!! ;D
I love Christopher. He has a basketball game this Sunday. I hope I don't have to work so that I can go see it. If I do have to work I'll find someone to cover my shift.
I am going to go play with Cash, I'll write some more later
♥
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| they say that? |
[30 Dec 2005|08:37am] |
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ashlee simpson [l.o.v.e.] |
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i don't know who reads this, and frankly i don't care that anyone does. get nervous, get anxious, you read what you read. i find it rather simple to click elsewhere.
i live a simple life. i feel all the things that everyone else feels, but sometimes i don't think i'm the same. :)
i love my boyfriend more than anything else [but family]. i have this deep sense of connection with him. i feel like i can just look him in the eyes and be content. when i do look at him, whether he is paying attention to me or something else, i feel so safe and content. i adore what we have. i wouldn't trade it for anything from the past, or anything that anyone says they have to offer. i have all that i want or ever will need. no one from my past stacks up; i've found the one . and i like it.
i start my career. eee, that sounds rather grown up. i dont know if i'm ready for that. well grown up in every sense of the word sounds so... ... stiff. i'm not going to be a stiff grown up. i'm going to live like i always live. i'm not going to let anything compromise my sometimes childish feelings and desires. nothing i tell you. i'm a happy girl with the heart of a child. and i happen to like that and get along just fine that way. :D
i have to go to work at express today [6-10]. my cousin is in town and i'd rather spend time with him and his cute girlfriend instead of folding and refolding clothes, but you have to do what you have to do in order to pay the bills. anyway. i've picked up a lot of shifts at express lately. either someone is sick or they are going on vacation. i'm not complaining. its all the more money in my pocket. i think i'll go to the mall early today before work to do some shopping---i have money left over from christmas and graduation..gift cards to be exact!!!
i can't wait to start at enterprise and be able to save up money so that chris and i can move in together. that will be the best. we will have to go get some furniture and a precious little bulldog. grrr...that day, i will have the biggest smile on my face. yesssss..what it is to dream and have goals that i know i can achieve...it just takes a little work and a lot of work is what i'm willing to do.
♥
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| you can't leave whats in the distance |
[05 Dec 2005|10:29pm] |
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i don't know what's wrong right now.
something is just getting me down.
i know it will pass..but i don't want to push it away just yet.
i want to sit in this wallow-ness...it feels okay right now.
i'm not feeling up to par emotionally.
it will pass, it will pass just like all the other days.
i know that sometimes i take things too much to heart.
i'm just not beautiful.
i'm just not who i want to be.
i'm just crossing my fingers.
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| my lips are sealed for him |
[20 Nov 2005|04:17pm] |
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all american rejects -paper heart- |
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i'm counting down the days until my bday and graduation.
not only will i be moving onto a different step in my life,
but i will also be leaving the terrible living situation i'm in.
i loathe 2 of the 3 people i live with.
its pretty deep.
as soon as i'm free of that stress, things will be good!!
chris and i went looking for apartments..it was fun!!
i can't wait to decorate for OUR place!
how come the bulldog we want has to be so expensive??
ho-hum.
thanksgiving is coming soon!! <3
here i come little pumpkin pies!
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| its all around you |
[06 Nov 2005|03:43pm] |
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fall out boy [dance dance] |
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this weekend was pretty fun!
homecoming weekend is always fun.
i wish that i would have had chris here with me or that i would have gone home to see him because I miss him so much <3
anyway...
on friday, the girls and i did so much stuff. we just went here there and everywhere.
on saturday, we went to the parade..it was a lot of fun. the floats, well lets just say most of them were cool. i guess HRM's float won 3rd place or something. i thought it was kind of boring! hahah. that is only because some people that we dont like were on the float..hahah :D amy was an judge for the parade floats..she felt all special. darcie and i met ourselves a new friend. he was mentally handicapped and such a nice guy. we took pictures of the floats for him. then he gave us his address so that we could keep in touch with him. haha. then his little adult escort came over to us and wouldn't stop talking. this 70 year old man wanted to make sure i had myself "a little boyfriend" who "treated me nice and good." eeeps..
then we went to the football game. the game was fun because it was anna, darcie, amy, and myself, but there was this guy who is in our major sitting right behind us and he was being a total asshole. needless to say we did not stay for the whole game. some really immature people can ruin things for others! i believe we lost that game against montana..no surprise. :(
today, we went to brunch at little america. i dove into the chocolate fountain..not to reemerge for about an hour--haha! I wish!!
now its time for school work...and then dinner at amy's house. free food!! gotta love it!
oh yes, how could i forget? new york is less then 5 days away!
ya!!
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| where do you get your data?? |
[02 Nov 2005|08:10pm] |
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the radio at the front desk |
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i don't know what to do.
i'm stressed lately.
a few things are bothering me.
i have a lot of school work to do and not enough time to do it.
i miss my boyfriend so much.
i cannot wait to move out of my dorm room.
i will be so so so sad to leave darcie and amy, but i won't be sad to leave the people that i just cannot stand.
i'm too the point where i want to tell a person who i actually despise that i despise them.
its not like we're 5 and have to be friends with everyone all the time.
i am old enough to choose my friendships and this one is just toxic.
i no longer care for her at all as a friend..its basically a waste of my time.
but living with this person makes telling her harder...just because she's a bitch and will probably freak out..haha.
god i hate real rats...
i want a job. i'm crossing my fingers for one that i think might turn out good if someone else hasn't already taken it. eeeps :/ okay i'll hope!
i want to move in with chris.
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| trying figure out why your brain is raddling around in there |
[15 Jun 2005|05:12pm] |
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no job no job i have no full time job
all i do is sit all day, day, daaay.
i work at express as a part time sales hoe,
tryin to make some dough
hi ho hi ho hi ho.
so there.
i love my chrisbooga.
don't even pretend like you know if you don't
its not flattering.
p.s. i'm feelin' all out of my element
i like random song lyrics i dont care where they come from or who doesn't like them, for those people who like to hate will burn in hell..yeah its true..your lord told me.
:D
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| i don't like beer |
[28 Apr 2005|08:53pm] |
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elvis pressely-jailhouse rock |
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i like the word blargh.
today we took a spirtual test. i scored a 60 on a 96 scale.
i am one with nature often. and always wonder.
i am going home tomorrow and that means that i need to finish homework asap.
i am counting down the days until school is over and i must say its not one hand worthy yet, but its getting there!
tonight my dad and i went to casa bonita/3 margaritas for dinner. the enchiladas weren't very good. good thing i also ordered a bean tostada or i would have been stuck with a gross dish.
then we went to target where i bought some mouthwash, body wash, and a bday card for my mommie. and soon i need to buy a mother's day card. and a gift?? what to do what to do??
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| just say i do |
[20 Apr 2005|03:32pm] |
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akon-lonely |
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i like living in a city with big trees and minimal cars.
it allows me time to just breathe and relax.
i just do not like the snow and wind.
i miss my boyfriend, but i need him to stop thinking that i don't want to talk to him when i tell him that i have things to get done.
my life is pretty stressful in its own respect right now because i have a group project in every single class which makes it hard to just sit around.
i love christopher.
things are going to get better.
we have a date this weekend. :D
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| its okay |
[15 Apr 2005|09:59am] |
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steve miller band |
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are you at peace with yourself?
--yes
i answered yes because i look at this question not by how old i am or what i have accomplished, but by a day to day basis. did i do the things and say the things that i wanted to? did i smile all the smiles that my face could handle? did i let the people i love know how much they mean to me? did i let anything get me down?
looking at things on a day to day basis is a lot easier then grouping everything together and letting things that you regret mess everything up.
maybe i'm optimistic.
maybe i'm a dreamer.
one day you'll understand.
sometimes i'm lost.
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| i'd say read up and do it quickly |
[11 Apr 2005|11:16am] |
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aretha franklin |
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if you can't embrace change
you just might be in trouble.
everyone has to learn to deal--
or expect an early ♥ attack!
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| that used to be it |
[07 Apr 2005|06:16pm] |
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destiny's child |
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in bar and beverage operations today we did WINE TASTING and FOOD PAIRING.
all i know was there were plenty of wine glasses layed out in front of me and plenty of food samples to taste them with.
the man who was conducting the tasting was a little snippy.
and i didnt like when he looked at me with his big ole glasses.
i like professor rande and his class now. its more than movies and chapters! haha
i just finished working out at step&scuplt.
now i think i'll find some homework to do. ;)
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| what else is new |
[28 Mar 2005|03:08pm] |
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bob seger |
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SPRING
BREAK
i spent the time with my love! and i loved it. i love him so much.
we did a lot of sitting around, which made us feel like couch potatoes.
we didn't mind.
we saw some movies. we ate lots of good food, try mexican!! yummers.
easter was a good time. we hung out with chris' family at his aunt & uncle's house.
i was pretty jealous of his cousins' and their significant others--because they were able to spend all their time together after they got done with work/school.
i want that with christopher.
summer is almost here. 6 more weeks!
my daddie is going to take me to the grocery soon. yeah.
:D
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| bit by bit |
[25 Mar 2005|04:41pm] |
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eminem |
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under a bright blue sky dotted with crisp white clouds
i smile awaiting my prince charming.
as soon as TFS lets him go from his money making chair,
we shall dash away to our happy times together.
a movie tonight?
as if it matters--any time with him i'm thankful for.
so for summer i need a job..anyone? ideas?? thanks.
i have two summer classes lined up.
-kitchen service management
-anatomy of human movement
what good fun i will have this summer: working, playing AND going to school.
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